Full Circle

It was the first time I was driving our car with our newborn all strapped in on the backseat
All of a sudden I became aware of every little thing (and by thing I mean all potential danger that we encountered). I was carrying precious cargo in that back seat. I had been a cautious driver in my life for quite some time now, but now more than ever all my senses were heightened and I became Intensely aware of my overwhelming love for this baby boy. Thoughts of how it would hurt me so if anything were to happen to my little boy and how I would do all within my power to protect him.

I understand now.

I am certain this is how my parents felt about me, I wish I had known this before. I wish I had realized how precious I was to them.

I may have been more careful, more accepting of their advice, more aware of their feelings.

I know that they have always had my best interest at heart. There were times when I did not understand their logic. Looking back I can understand them better now. Raising their children in a country they themselves did not grow up in was challenging. I can see that sometimes when I thought they were being most unfair was because they were probably acting out of fear,

fear of things that seemed foreign to them. They wanted to protect me and guide me the best they knew how. I am so grateful for them!

It has all come full circle, I understand now.  That understanding will most likely grow deeper as my little boy (and future little children) get older.